So I was sent this through the anonymous email and I’m not sure how this will work, but whoever wrote this or even whoever feels this way is welcome to comment below and I’ll try my best to be there for you or if you’re willing to, you can message me on instagram (faizahzkhan) or by email- faizahkh@buffalo.edu
“How does you live by the fact that you literally have no friends (no one to go and share anything to when you’re bothered by something…literally no go-to person or someone you can just have a regular day-to-day convo with) and the fact that you have many enemies and people around you that hate you with a passion? Does anyone in this world deserve such? Why doesn’t anyone understand the feelings that one goes through when experiencing such?”
I don’t think anyone deserves to feel that way. The world is filled with selfish people who are so preoccupied in thinking about what’s best for themselves and how to look a certain way on social media and in front of others that they forget to actually care about others. Sometimes, after they go through something similar are they able to relate to others feelings, but not always. I didn’t really have close friends either that I talked to all day or I told my problems to. I used to get pretty sad about it, especially when it felt like I was the only one that didn’t have a close friend group that I could just text all day about little, stupid things. Yeah, I have “friends,” but most of them only act like friends when it’s convenient for them, like if they need advice or need help with something. I couldn’t rely on them for the same support that they gave me. I learned to be more selfish, which seems like a bad thing, but actually it helped me a lot. I realized pretty fast who I could trust and who I couldn’t. I realized how many of these so-called friends actually cared about me, and it wasn’t many of them. I think what you’re feeling and going through is completely normal, but you have to branch out and try to become friends with others, at work or school.
It took me a while, but I found people that I can trust and talk to now. I am closer to some of my newer friends than I am with people I’ve known my whole life, so stay positive and branch out and talk to new people whenever you get the chance.
I would suggest to also look at what you’re doing that might be upsetting people. If it feels like thats the case with everyone, it’s a possibility that maybe you need to sit back and think about what you can do differently. I’m not saying to change who you are, but maybe change the way you react or talk to people. You could even confront these people and ask them why they feel the way they do, it seems scary, but it’ll benefit you to know what you can do to have better relationships with others.
I hope I helped and I’m always looking for new friends so feel free to message me :).